I have 2 exams tomorrow and for some reason, no matter how many times i read through my notes & study, i cant seem to memorize any of this. For the first time, its not sticking inside my head for some reason. I never really realized how much time goes by. It’s really scary actually. I told myself last wednesday that I would start studying but I started on saturday; didnt really get much done, studied a little more on sunday, &now im pulling an allnighter &tryna cram. What the heck is wrong with me? Im physically here but not mentally. Im not even tired right now &have no desire to sleep. In fact, I have no desire to do anything for the time being. Nowadays, thoughts that I always pushed aside &never paid any attention to are suddenly taking over me &i dont know why. Too many thoughts & mixed emotions are racing inside me &I feel like because I’m thinking too much, I can’t focus on schoolwork. Fuck, I really need to pull it together &do well on my 1st exams for the new semester. Legggggo.